Ever With Chris Harrison.
“I lost 20 pounds.
I didn’t sleep, I didn’t eat,” said Harrison.

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The former Bachelor Nation host and relationship guru broke his silence in the debut ofThe Most Dramatic Podcast…
Ever, which dropped today.
“I was heartbroken.
I was gutted,” he said.
“I was embarrassed.
I was mad at myself.
I was disappointed in myself.
“My apology was warranted.
I had no problem putting out that first apology…
But there was just so much noise at the time, it just didn’t matter.
Apologies didn’t matter,” he said.
“Even after that apology, we were still at ground zero.
It was confusing and it was scary.”
Listen to the first two episodes ofThe Most Dramatic Podcast… Everbelow.