“That was a huge reason for me not going.

But when I sat back for a second, I was like, ‘You know what?

I was here first.'”

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There isn’t much that scaresJordan Wiseley.

Even though he had no real plan or prior experience doing anything like that, he wasn’t afraid.

But coming intoseason 38forThe Challenge: Ride or Dies, theReal World: Portlandalum was absolutely freaking out.

I think that people will be surprised at how it all plays out."

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY:What inspired you to return to the flagship after taking some seasons off and doingAll Stars?

JORDAN WISELEY:They called me, and you know Tori is a big part of my life.

But when I sat back for a second, I was like, “You know what?

I was here first.”

I need to man up and deal with my stuff if I want to go play.

Do you remember the moment where you realized that?

I was on a wild ride the whole first half of the year.

I left the country and I went to Ukraine for around 50 days.

I came back, filmed a show for nine days out in the desert.

Do you want to go?"

I was like, “A vacation would be awesome right now.”

It was the furthest thing from my mind, honestly, but it just got put on my doorstep.

I went out on the beach and did some thinking and I was like, “You know what?

Let’s go play.”

I knew what I was stepping into, and she did not.

She had already arrived, and was like, “He’s not here.

And then when I show up, I could only imagine what she was thinking.

[Laughs] We’re all getting closure.

Coming in late, I was like, “How are they going to receive this?”

I’ve been gone for a while, so I was very anxious.

This is the most under-prepared I’ve been for a season, my butterflies were going crazy.

I had zero training camp coming into it.

I was like the most out of shape physically and mentally.

I had just been all over the world, now I’m stepping into an emotional minefield.

Anxiety was at a high.

Not many people at all can play the way that I play.

I play all out, right?

I don’t hold anything back.

I’m very straight up, and that can really bite you in the butt as we’ve seen.

So it was tough for me mentally coming in like this.

Get her first win ever.”

I think that would cement myself as one of the top guys ever in the game.

So challenge accepted, pardon the pun.

There’s so much that happens in our cast dynamics that the audience just doesn’t see.

We are Virgo siblings.

I want her to experience that as much as possible.

What can you tease about how you two work together this season?

Much like our relationship over our lifetime, it is up and down throughout the game.

And Aneesa can’t help herself, she has to put her hands in everything.

There’s definitely a lot there, and I truly believe it was the hardestChallengethat I have ever done.

Because of the emotional drama or do you mean physically too?

Physically and mentally, I really came into this not prepared on both sides.

It was truly an uphill battle for myself.

How did your time onAll Stars 3affect how you played this season?

I was thrown a lot of praise.

Don’t ever take their flattery as they’re going to let you skate through."

I’ve seen it happen, and I just really want to be conscious of that.

How did this season compare to your previous seasons?

I did not think they were going to come for us the way that they came for us.

I was like, “I’ve got some pretty good tenure and a good reputation.

Aneesa has a ton of friends.

She’s the relationship queen around here.

So we should be good for a while.”

There was never a week where we were good.

I was like, “What the hell, man?

I thought we were going to skate at least a week or two.”

But we do it.

The Challenge: Ride or DiespremieresWednesday, Oct. 12 at 8 p.m. ET/PT on MTV.